so I havent written in this thing so.. um.. well.. years.. apparently.. I should write more often.. but I find I only have a strong desire to write when I have been hurt.. so anyhow.. that strong desire came to me the other day.. and I wrote this. that is all.




trudging through this path with you..
spirit bruised
black and blue
mindful that we're through

constant query
scarcely a reply
grown weary
from this disregard
from this slight
of mind

little bubbles to the surface of reality
in the swamp of life
cuts like a knife
so much strife

ask the question
of meant to be

not meant to be
never with me
you see

we are like road signs
fading in the distance
on a darkened night
you and me
we travel worlds apart
in only a breath
of time
moment of mine
we intertwine

no more

untangle the roots of love
that planted its seed
with this need
with this greed
for your love

mangled and jaded
twisted and faded
shipped out and traded

there will be a peace
of separation
this segregation
of your heart with mine

there will be a piece
left with you
of that Im sure
the past concurs

and I am crazy today
and maybe tomorrow
I will regain this sense of self
so many talk about
and voices shout
at me
to be me
to forget you
and somehow I doubt
this is meant to be
you and me
you see

tears will be shed
there will be lives misled
along the way
hungry heart was fed
then left for dead
and bled dry
gone awry
perfect lie?
like fools gold
in my hands
I hold
this heart of mine
lost in time

feed me a line
and all along I will grin and say
with a wince on my face
it is for the better
its best we displace
from this place
of futile distaste
and disgrace
its a race to heal
its a chase

away from you
from me

not meant to be
never with you
you see