An old friend of mine got married this last weekend. I wasn't invited. In fact, I'm 29 years old in a few days and I have yet to go to a friend's wedding. My best friend married years ago and only gave people 3 weeks notice to get to vegas... that wasn't possible for me. My other great friend got married in figi.. I wasn't even invited to the reception when they got back. (we were on and off friends at that point in time). I have no other great friends in the world. This group of people that I used to hang with in high school and for a couple years after, used to be my best friends. There were about 10-15 of us that all hung out on a regular basis. I split away from the group to get sober about 5 years ago... they are all getting married and having children...and it's terribly sad to me that I am not a part of their lives anymore. It makes me heart sick. It makes me think of all that I gave up to get sober. I only ever had friends that did drugs or friends that got drunk(heck they all still get drunk together).. I only ever had those guys. I never had anyone else. So, getting sober.. I had to leave them all behind.. it was a great loss. It's a sad day to wake up and realize that you have no one in your life but your family. Should that be enough? maybe.. for some.. but it's not for me. I miss my dear old friends. I miss them something awful.